I'm not sure how much more you and I can take. The holiday season, tho fun in many ways, is stressful. Add on 2020? That's can be a recipe for exhaustion.
If you're under the weather and struggling with the Corona Blues, please do yourself a favor, get your friends together and get away for a weekend. It's better than any pill, you can take, your mental health will thank you.
Until you learn to truly "be yourself," you'll find you'll make life choices that don't always work for the real you. That can affect every aspect of your life.